So it is Monday.

Okay I feel good about that. I’m listening to it as I type.  Yesterday I had a revelation while laying on the floor doing yoga.  It is offensive the view he has of me.  Like i’m this high strung limited whiney bitch! It really bugs me.  And he’s just a dick! I guess my view of him is something too.  And I also realized that I wanted more.  But realized when my father was torturing me that my life was a limited prison.  If he is NOT going to give me the life that I want then I definitely want it elsewhere.  I’m ot a victim here.  I’m not.  And I can and will find what I want elsewhere.

I’ve decided that I miss keeping a written journal be feel weird about the journal I have started.  There is so much negative energy in it.  Like every entry is about either:

a. him and how i want to move on

b. weight loss and exercise

c. school or work!

The things that I obsess on.  Or the kids.  Or social settings.  And it’s okay but I’m ready to move on. 

Negative Energy

I’m tired of always having something negative to say about people when I’m done talking with them.  I want to take a different path but how do I change this? Its like I have NOTHING else to dicuss? How do I changet this about myself.?