So today I boought a new journal among other items. I’ve decided that I’m done writing negative thoughts about other people.  That i need to move on.  Wow when the whole situation with my father came to joyous and abrupt end I didn’t know what to do with my life.  Where to go? I’ve come a long way from there.  A VERY LONG WAY.  I’ve recently realized that I’m due to change how I react to other people.  That i need to take time to let go of how I feel and to stop expressing my negative opinions towards others.  To just accept them and realize that by giving a negative view of the person it is going to accomplish nothing more than making me look and feel badly.  I’m tired of expressing the bad feelings I get about this or that.  Sooo from now on I will focus on changing my stripes.

I’m cutting back the phone time with my mother to ONE CALL a day no matter the stupid little things that happen.  When I listen to her negativity – and i know that I’m no saint, it upsets me.  This is not how I want to live.  So there that is that a new leaf.  My person guidelines and goals.

1. Do not saying anything about others unless it something good. If I have a complaint to express what will this complaint get for me? How will it make the situation different or better or am I just talking bad about the person under the guise that I need to “vent”

2.  I will limit my phone calls to ONE A day no more morning calls.  I will think of only positive things to discuss.  I will not participate in any negative bashing or conversations.

3.  If I need complain then its only electronically.  This is a bad habit I need to break.  If I complain about anyone I need to rephrase with a positive saying.

4.  If I am not happy about certain things then I need to express myself.  If it does not work out then that is life and its time for us to move on.  I will spend hours giving silent treatment or sulking its time to say what I mean – mean what I say and move on.  I love that.

I will practice it.