So here is the deal, I am forgiving. I know what I want. I will have the strength to go for it. I will be there for you. I will love you and honor you with all of my heart. I promise. I realize that it may not be meant to be, and I forgive myself for decisions made in the past. Its ok. I am ok. With that said, I know that I am seeing positive signs in balance that I was lacking. I am guestimating about 3 months from now things will be somewhat normal, God willing.

School is going well. I am so proud of myself and the things I’ve accomplished in this past year. I mean truly it is amazing. I have a lot to offer and I will offer it if I can. I’ve made my intentions clear to him. He tries he really does. He gives all that he can. I have realized that sometimes it is not the same as what others give but that is totally ok. It is him and what he has.

I’ve found my old blog out there. Gawd – things have changed so much. Thank GOD. I still wonder what happened to him that it snapped. I think he really was being shook down?? It was the only way he’d relinquish that power and thank god that happened. I mean can you believe the recovery I made from basically being a prisoner? Its no wonder I’ve had some minor set backs. I forgive myself. I’ve done so well.