I remember when I used to write in my journal everyday. I guess there are certain growth spurts in life and its just not for you at the moment in time.  I’ve been very busy for the past year with a new job, going to college part-time and other issues.  I’ve recently suffered from a knee injurty and I haven’t been working out like I used to.  It’s been hard for me to be kind to myself in regards to that.  I’m a totally different place mentally. Yes I have my problems but from where I was before? It’s like nite and day.  He and I good and have been for the most part.  There some things about how he deals that are just bull shit but either I tell him what I think or I don’t.  If I don’t like his reaction we don’t have to continue this journey.

I am feeling tubby. I want to lost about 15 – 20.  Its steadily gone up over the years.  I guess that’s what happens. I saw an article about Jennifer Love losing weight and she looks great.  Incredible in comparison to before. Its funny how much a difference extra weight can make.